Category Archives: mental health

The unexplainable

In the wake of my wife’s passing, my children still had obligations to meet. My son was in a job out in New York. My daughter had a semester to finish at Augustana College. Yet all of time seems to … Continue reading

Posted in Christopher Cudworth, death, fear, life and death, love, mental health | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Beyond the pain

Following the passage of my late wife in March of 2013, we conducted a Memorial Service. The people in attendance ranged from all walks of our life. Along with my son and daughter there were other family, longtime friends and … Continue reading

Posted in 10K, aging, Christopher Cudworth, competition, cycling, life and death, love, mental health | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

On the run through a world of hurt

One of the key things a distance runner learns over time is how to deal with a world of hurt. Among track athletes, it is those who circle the oval multiple times that learn to deal with sustained levels of … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, healthy aging, it never gets easier you just go faster, life and death, love, mental health, running | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A trip back east in search of a sense of hope

Following a departure from an audio-visual company reeling from its inability to finish a new product for which they never completed the software, I engaged in full-time caregiving for my wife as she sank into another recurrence of the ovarian … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, Christopher Cudworth, fear, foregiveness, friendship, mental health, mental illness, PEAK EXPERIENCES, running | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A definite feeling of unsurety

Have you ever wondered exactly how good you really are at something? Pick anything. It could be gardening. Your job. Relationships. Marriage. Divorce. We all face these pursuits in our own way. Yet it’s really hard to judge whether you’re … Continue reading

Posted in aging, anxiety, Christopher Cudworth, college, competition, cross country, mental health, running, steeplechase, track and field, training | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

Education. Presentation. Inspiration.

This post is part of a continuing series of chapters to be included in a book titled Competition’s Son. Hunting for a job when you desperately need one is never fun. If you’re old enough to think back to the … Continue reading

Posted in 10K, Christopher Cudworth, competition, mental health, running | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Riding through the pain

During the year 2007 with all the transitions going on in life, I made the decision to expand my fitness retinue by purchasing a genuine road bike. I’d already been riding an ancient 1984-era Trek 400 for several years. That … Continue reading

Posted in Christopher Cudworth, cycling, cycling the midwest, doing pulls in cycling, it never gets easier you just go faster, mental health, werunandride | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

An unpleasant start to an ultimately pleasant triathlon

Open-water swimming is one of life’s acquired joys. Unless one grows up swimming in ponds, lakes, or oceans it takes a bit of practice to get used to the idea of climbing into the water and swimming over whatever depths … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, Christopher Cudworth, cycling, Depression, fear, mental health, PEAK EXPERIENCES, race pace, racing peak, riding, running, swimming | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Not “woe is me,” but resiliency

Following the emotional breakdown of my wife after the cancer returned in 2007 after two years of treatments and remission, I proceeded to lose my new job at the marketing agency. It had taken months to work up the courage … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, Christopher Cudworth, competition, Depression, fear, mental health, mental illness | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Rough landings

I was a high jumper during my high school career and first year of college. I jumped 6′ 1/2″ in college, my best ever. Not bad for a distance runner with skinny calves and not much in the thigh area … Continue reading

Posted in anxiety, Christopher Cudworth, fear, mental health, mental illness | Tagged , , , , , , , | Leave a comment