Category Archives: fear

50 Years of Running: The winter of my discontent

When the temperature hit -26 degrees on January 10 of 1982, I’d already been inside for two or three days, and was getting cabin fever. Even girlfriend company didn’t help. I was stir crazy and needed to get out for … Continue reading

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50 Years of Running: What a fool believes

Somehow I managed to squeeze in a race back home in Illinois amid all the new obligations with the admissions job. The race raised funds for my high school cross country program, and I ran a solid 25:40 five-mile after … Continue reading

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50 Years of Running: First, a flight. Then I woke up dead.

Following a successful conference meet, our team earned a trip to Nationals out in Boston, Massachusetts. We’d swept the top five spots at the IIAC race and our coach Kent Finanger followed through on getting us an entry to the … Continue reading

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50 Years of Running: Fear and Loathing in Cross country

I was too young to have read anything by Hunter S. Thompson when I was a freshman in high school. But it would have been good for me to absorb some of the fearless antics of the Gonzo journalist that … Continue reading

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Fear of success is a real thing

While teaching physical education as a substitute yesterday, I received a request from a teacher to let me know how the class behaved during gym. “They didn’t behave for the sub earlier this week,” she related. I’ve taught thousands of … Continue reading

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