Category Archives: death

Wear and tear and ‘wouldn’t change a thing’

Posted on November 22, 2025 by Christopher Cudworth

While attending a Luther College reunion, I was walking next to my cross-country coach Kent Finanger, who was bent over and limping due to back issues likely related to his years of playing football and basketball during his college career. … Continue reading →

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Ironman, humanity, and humility

Posted on October 1, 2025 by Christopher Cudworth

Things didn’t go that well for my wife at Ironman Chattanooga last weekend. While she finished the race last year minus the swim, the hurricane that made landfall and traveled north from the Gulf of Mexico through the eastern United … Continue reading →

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The year I damn near died in a toothy fashion

Posted on July 31, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

Somewhere in the middle part of my 60s a tooth went bad in the back of my jaw. I’d gone to some sketchy dentists right after my wife died and the first dentist I visited didn’t explain clearly that my … Continue reading →

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Maybe the hardest thing I’ve ever done

Posted on July 16, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

I was a bit torn when it came time to sell the house I’d owned at 367 Republic Road in Batavia. We moved there from a tiny little 750-square-foot house in Geneva with a leaky basement, a radon problem, and … Continue reading →

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Carry on

Posted on January 25, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

After several years straight of focusing all efforts on maintaining my late wife’s health through cancer treatments, and stumbling through financially, I had some catching up to do on my own health in 2013. The previous year ended with a … Continue reading →

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Dating as a widower

Posted on January 23, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

The term “widower” seems so loaded with tradition and history, it deserves a definition right here and now. I looked it up and this is what it says: If anything I was a garden widower before my late wife Linda … Continue reading →

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Grief and choices

Posted on January 22, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

At times I’ve considered whether I’m “missing a chip” when it comes to grieving lost loved ones. Over the years I’ve met people, both men and women, that can’t recover after losing a spouse. Time magazine dealt with the subject … Continue reading →

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The unexplainable

Posted on January 21, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

In the wake of my wife’s passing, my children still had obligations to meet. My son was in a job out in New York. My daughter had a semester to finish at Augustana College. Yet all of time seems to … Continue reading →

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How time slips away, but not with 4WD

Posted on January 18, 2024 by Christopher Cudworth

Well, hello thereMy, it’s been a long, long timeHow am I doing?Oh, I guess that I’m doing fine It’s been so long nowBut it seems now, that it was only yesterdayGee, ain’t it funny, how time slips away =Willie Nelson … Continue reading →

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A healthy amount of skepticism is always healthy

Posted on September 1, 2023 by Christopher Cudworth

For perspective on the issue of skepticism when it comes to dealing with problems in life, let’s look at a definition for the word “un·for·tu·nate” adjective Sometimes it pays to examine the root meaning of a commonly used word to … Continue reading →

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