Wet and wild

Wetlands One.jpgThis weekend there were massive storms across the Midwestern United States. The winds were fierce and persistent. Our run club on Saturday morning did an out and back course with the return trip flush into the stiff northern breeze. It was hard work getting back.

Then the rain started at noon and continued all the way through Sunday evening. At times the rain was horizontal. When the wind let up by Sunday noon, a steady drizzle kept coming. The birds at our backyard feeder pecked at wet seed but it was all they could do just to feed. The band of seven male ducks that uses our feeder stood out in the rain and wind looking nonplussed about the conditions.

Human equations

But everyone on the human side of the equation altered their daily activities, it seems. At the grocery store, attendance was light compared to a typical Saturday or Sunday. The Garden Center at Home Depot was nearly deserted. I visited just to buy some extensions for the downspouts.

That got me thinking about my former house and how it used to flood in the basement when big rains came. Over the years I worked with the waterproofing company until they finally installed some high-powered sump pumps that could jet water out of the sump wells with frightening speed. “Yeah, this mother is going to do the trick,” the waterproofing dude assured me.

That gave me some peace of mind when the rains came. But more than once over the years, I’d scuttled around that basement like a crayfish in the Gulf shallows trying to usher water around my little domain.

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Water is persistent. It goes the path of least resistance. Downhill in whatever direction it can find until it settles or pours through the low spots. But water is fickle: It can also rise up when confined by banks that cannot hold its volume. That’s when rivers overflow and wetlands become so important. The so-called “backwaters” of the Mississippi and other great rivers accepts floodwaters. Rivers that overflow their banks often enrich the soil. That’s how the Nile served Egypt, and how many great rivers still perform valuable fertilization rites to this day.

To some small extent, that’s the case right now in our backyard, where a wetland bumps up against civilization. The spring rains filled it past its typical boundaries. Now the bike and running path that rims the wetland is covered over by a giant puddle. The huge poplar trees and scrubby willows along the edges of the wetland are reflected in the pure, clear water that has overflowed the banks. I stood over those waters in a moment of zen. The calm I feel at such moments goes beyond thought.

Songs of the day

I walked down to the edge of the extravagantly overflowing pool this morning to listen to newly arrived migrant birds. There was a yellow warbler singing, and a yellowthroat as well. These two beautiful birds are small in size (5-6″) but have a big aural presence during the Yellow warbler.jpegspring and summer months. They are both common birds across the Midwest, and their respective songs are part of the background music of life here. Both often sing throughout the day as well.

The yellow warbler has a bright yellow plumage with richyellowthroat red stripes on its breast. It’s insistent but thin song goes sweet-sweet-sweet sweetchieuuuuu. The yellowthroat wears a black mask through its eye. It tosses back its head and sings a throaty witchity–witchity–whitchity whichhh!

These birds I know from years of summer association. While running and riding in the country, their songs are indicators of slightly wild and often wet places. And while 90% of the human populace likely ignores their songs, they keep singing it. Perhaps they know something that we don’t. That we’re not so important as we might like to think.

Knowing they’ll be my company so close to home is a joy indeed. They love the wet places and right now things are really wet within thirty yards of my house. Indeed, people who walk and jog or bike that path will have to choose whether they want to go straight through the extended wetlands or choose a soggy shortcut across the park district lawn to connect with the paved path further down.

Nature’s own course

Nature determines the course of things on its own terms, at times. I wish more people understood the importance of these seemingly simple dynamics. Wetlands are important. They play a critical role in holding water and filtering it down into the earth where some of it reaches the aquifers.  Wetlands need space but people like to confine them and try to limit their reach. It’s hard for human beings who covet property over purpose to leave wetlands alone rather than dig them up or channelize them until they serve no purpose other than storing turgid water with no purpose other than reflecting the sky.

 

Flooding in Decorah

During college, I lived in the dorm in the background of this photo. That’s a parking lot.

I admit to loving the chaos of water when it disobeys manmade structures. The rush of a flooding river is compelling to watch. But even that love of chaos has its limits. Because up in Decorah, Iowa where I attended college, the levees do their best to hold back the Upper Iowa river, but the topography defies such efforts, and over the last decade the river has caused havoc year after year. It floods the entire lower campus, including the cross country course that runs along the lowlands by the river. The floodwaters even threaten bridges at times. And be advised: There is no more frail feeling in this world than running or riding over a bridge where the raging waters course just feet below.

 

Occasionally people try to ignore the power of such water and try driving through floodwaters. Their cars inevitably get scooped up by the waters and thrashed against bridge abutments or destroyed some other way. Apparently, some people believe they have immunity against the forces of nature. But when it is unleashed, water is the most unforgiving substance on earth. It listens to no one. It is wet and wild.

The rains were surely fierce this weekend. They dashed against the side of our house making noise like a rushing train. But this morning the waters the rains left behind are calm and broad behind our home. There’s an allegory there. A lesson that our patience must be tested before such calm can be earned. Think about that before your next hard run or ride or swim.

 

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Time on your own

nelson-beamThe idea of tracking a run or a ride by satellite on some days just seems intrusive. Who really, truly needs to know what you’re doing? Perhaps even you don’t need or want to know what you’re doing.

Just go do it. Stop worrying so much whether you’ve hit your metrics or done something to fight off the karma of the Strava trolls. Ten years from now, it won’t matter if you ran 9:36 per mile or 9:56 per mile on a four-mile run on Friday in April 2017.

There are simply times when you need some time on your own.

That’s true in life as well. I’ve spoken with more than one woman friend coming off a divorce or a dating relationship that just wants time on her own. To sort that shit out. Same goes for the guys. All people need time on our own. Sometimes.

Running and riding can be quite constructive in all these processes. Some work it all out swimming laps in the pool. With nothing to look at but the bottom of the pool and a bunch of insane bubbles coming out of your own face, think time is a nice diversion during a couple thousand meters in the pool.

riding-sunsetBut here’s a hint about making the most of time on your own. Plan some unplanned stops. Pause on that path through the forest preserve. Actually stop, and breathe. Look around you. Take it all in before you make another step.

Or stop on the bike and actually drink deeply from your bottle. Chow on that tasty Larabar you brought along. Let the wind wash over you without fighting back. You might find that some of your problems––or even the sense that there are problems––might just blow away.

You work hard for that kind of independence. As endurance athletes, we build up all this fitness and don’t pause often enough to take advantage of where it actually takes us. Much can be gained by learning to love the feeling of being on your own, under your own power.

There’s a ride I like to take that follows a rolling road called Keslinger out from Geneva to the town of DeKalb and back. It crosses I-88, the Interstate that cuts through Illinois farmland between Oak Brook and Rock Island. West of County Line Road, the road gets a bit less refined. In Dekalb County, the road narrows slightly while rolling up and down a series of glacial fingers tossed there 10,000 years ago by retreating glaciers. Now those hills are covered each year by soybeans and corn.

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Out on Route 23 I either turn around and head back Keslinger or swing south to Perry Road, an even wilder little country road that slips past decaying barns and old farmsteads. It hasn’t been that long sing all those people left the land. They’ve been bought out or replaced by farm conglomerates with big equipment and yields in mind.

On my little bike I pass all that by. The only chunk of ground I technically (besides our property, which the bank actually owns) on this earth is the 3” my tires or running shoes touch as I move along stride for stride or pedal for pedal.

But that three inches connects me to the earth in some way, and that’s how we measure time. It’s time on my own, you might say. And it’s time you own as well. So own it as well as you can.  Let the day flow into your mind, and let your worries or concerns flow out.

You are home.

 

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And silver tarsnakes in the setting sun

Tarsnakes.jpgOn the heels of a longer bike ride on Sunday, the opportunity to ride on Monday seemed like an extravagance. But the weather was near perfect: 70 degrees and sunny.

So I pulled out the Batavia kit in red, black and white and jumped on the Specialized Venge for an hour’s ride (or more).

It was windy, and I knew that. So I aimed for the local glacial hill that juts out of the Illinois landscape. Hide from the wind and do hill repeats. There are several such rises in the area. Each is a deposit from the glaciers that once crushed this area of the country. If there were hills at one time in this region, they all got scraped down by mountainous walls of ice that were perhaps a mile tall in places. The winds reportedly reached hurricane force off those ice shields.

But that took place 10,000 years ago. For a long time following the Ice Age, gravel was the dominant feature. Then the recomposition phase began. Mineral soils began to blow around. A feature called prairie loess began to cover much of the Upper Midwest. Plants moved in and evolved to occupy this initially shallow feature. Their roots evolved to sink deep into the ground. Over millennia the prairie built soils as much as six or seven feet deep.

From ice to white fury

This was the landscape upon which European settlers pounced just 200 years ago. When the metal plow allowed the ability to tear up the roots of the prairie plants, it was game over for the native prairie. Now less than 1/10th of one percent of the original prairie in Illinois remains.

And we’ve done a piss poor job of protecting the depth and quality of the soils we exploit for food and fuel. Many billions of tons of rich black soil have either blown or washed away. Much of it wound up in rivers that carried it down to the Gulf of Mexico.

This soil dispersal is visible along old fence lines where the posts perch a foot or two higher than the surrounding land. We’ve gained 200 years of prosperity from that missing soil, but sacrificed 10,000 years of evolution in the process.

Patent stink

And for that reason, the smell of ammonia was rich across the land on Sunday. That’s how farmers replace nitrogen in the soil. Then we passed a hog farm that almost choked off our breathing it stunk so bad. In some places the impact of hog farms on nearby streams is devastating. In others, the mere smell of pig manure permeates an entire section the landscape. Those are the prices we pay for the chance to slap a pork chop on a grill come Sunday. I’ve done it. I’m guilty as the rest of us.

Meanwhile, across the nation the excess love of red meat drives beef farmers to use as much as 50% of the freshwater consumed in America in raising meat products. And all that red meat with its tasty fat helps contribute to health issues such as heart disease. We are literally living off the fat of land. And it’s us.

Equations

Think of the equation in all this. We’ve stripped the marbled soil from our landscape and at the same time consume so much marbled beef our arteries and veins grow walls of plaque that eventually choke off our own bloodstream. And yet the ranchers scream that they don’t have enough access and freedom to graze their cattle on public land. They even shut down a nature preserve a couple years ago to make the point that they’re paying too much to let their cattle denude the land of native and invasive grasses. America is turning itself inside out over its own appetites.

These days there are not many cattle ranches or dairy farms left in Illinois. It’s all corn and soybeans. I rode through those fields carefully scrubbed of corn shalks and bean remnants on my way to Johnson’s Mound, the prairie kame that sticks up out of the fields. Then I rode five circuits around the 8/10 of a mile loop. Near the tope of the climb the grade rises to 12%. It gets pretty hard to move without standing up on the pedals. But that’s the point. Hard is good on a bike. Hills are vital to ride.

Wildflowers and pain

There were wildflowers everywhere on the side of the hill at Johnson’s Mound. The have come and gone more than 40 times since the first time I climbed that hill was 1971 as a high school freshman. As I’ve climbed through life, it has not gotten any easier to ride or run the damned hill. But that’s also the point. When life is hard, it pays to make it harder so that the rest feels easy.

Then I pedaled back into the southeast wind that shuttled my aero bike back and forth across the white line. As the sun got to an angle behind me, the tarsnakes behind me shone silver in the white light of a late spring afternoon. To some, it was just another day. But I thanked the universe for my ability to enjoy such a moment, and for the knowledge of all that takes place around me, and has gone before. It all matters somehow. Everything.

Even while people blindly choke down red meat and ignore the history of the landscape in the process, someone has to care. Call that the liberal instinct. The will to wonder why we do the things we do, and to question even traditional “values” when they are obviously the things wasting our soil and killing us inch by inch.

There’s a strain of morbid stupidity a mile deep going on in America right now. It’s like an icy glacier of ignorance flattening the nation’s conscience and demanding that the Doctrine of Dunces be allowed full sway. It’s a cold thick wasteland of anti-intellectualism that spreads like ice across a dimwitted Congress and Executive Branch and Supreme Court.

But the recent March for Science shows that people who care about such things will not be run over by dullards and demagogues. There is still hope. And the silver tarsnakes in the setting sun cheered me on.

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Out and back and all points in between

riding-gouldsWe rode familiar roads this weekend. The exact same route back as out. One could call that boring or engaging. It’s all about the company.

Five triathletes. Two on road bikes. At one point during the return trip, a rider in his aero helmet (because it was cold outside, but then hot) asked how it was that a roadie could keep up with the tri-bikes.

The answer was simple. Draft like a boss when you can. The 30% of position efficiency given away on a road bike versus a tri-bike must be made up somewhere. It’s all about riding close to the wheels of the next rider up.

And then came the turn to pull. That meant riding in the drops. Stay loose in the arms and skate on the pedals. Even circuits. Hold 24-25 and go for a couple minutes, maybe more if the wind is at the back. Enjoy it, in other words.

Out we went through a light breeze. Back we came with the wind now circling us. Sort of a tailwind. Sometimes a crosswind. Zig we rode. Then zag.

Through the little town of Kaneville we returned. The Purple Store was open for smalltown residents to pick up cinnamon buns or whatever Sunday demanded. We’d already stopped at the Casey’s gas station out in Maple Park. Popped some ice in the water bottle. Ate a PowerBar and a Larabar. Fuel for the home journey.

By the time we returned the Sunday morning traffic had picked up. The mid-spring frost had melted by then. The sun was warm on our faces. Later that day, a touch of color showed on the cheeks.

Out and back and all points in between. Stay alert and keep a brisk cadence. Soak up the scenery as the farm fields breathed back ammonia and the hog farm nearly choked off our esophagus as we passed. This is spring. This is Illinois. This is cycling almost anywhere in the world.

 

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Obama, Trump and Caddyshack golf

Images of Donald Trump on the golf course have me laughing a little. In both appearance and demeanor on and around the course, he resembles the Rodney Dangerfield character in the movie Caddyshack.

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It’s all quite funny considering how much the Trumpster criticized President Barack Obama for spending time on the links. It’s an interesting comparison of composure and physique.

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I grew up on a golf course. Know how to play the game. I’m probably a 13-15 handicap golfer but don’t care that much about golf to worry about it. So I’m nothing special, but not terrible either.

So I’ve been on golf courses that are posh and some that are awful. Played at Medinah a few times. I’ve also golfed on cheap course where thirteen-lined ground squirrels dominate the fairways. Golf balls drop down holes never to be seen again. So the full spectrum of golf is no mystery to me. Been in wealthy clubhouses where you can’t set your golf shoes down without an attendant scooping them up for a shine. Learned to carry money around to tip everyone that serves the club members.

It always made me uncomfortable to be placed in such a position. I can’t help identifying with the people in those positions. I’ve been a caddy. Walked the course carrying someone else’s bag. Worked clubhouses where arrogant members treat other people like dirt. It’s no fun. And frankly, it always seemed a bit demeaning.

Laugh it up

There have been many funny moments on the golf course, including day that I carefully stepped on a partner’s golf ball and saw it pop up and hit him in the forehead when he putted. That was one of the funniest moments of my life. Who could have predicted that one?

In fact, much of the joy in playing golf is the camaraderie of being out there with friends or associates yukking it up and making fun of each other. That’s what made the Rodney Dangerfield character in Caddyshack so familiar to so many. He was the perfect combination of the lowbrow golfer with the highbrow means to make the game fun.

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As a longtime distance runner and cross country competitor, I also have a unique perspective on golf courses as an environment. Many of our high school and college meets were held on golf courses. I clearly recall running my guts out while passing squads of golfers on carts. They stared at us. It was worlds colliding. We were the curiosity, and they were the supposed mainstream. And granted, large bands of skinny runners cruising the golf course at high speed is a bit of a strange sight. No clubs. No bags. Just balls out.

Hardly fit

On the whole, the world of golf does not seem a haven for fit or highly active types. I’m writing a book titled “Nature is My Country Club,” and my research turned up these interesting statistics.

“Since its inception, golf has evolved from its roots as of humble walks through country links to largely motorized tours of urban courses where people only get out of their carts to hit a shot. The website FitnessbyAndrew.com published this interesting set of facts: “In 1984, 45% of rounds were played with a motorized cart. By 2002, cart usage rose to 66% and in 2006 increased to 69%.  In 2006, only 30% of rounds were walked.  Today, the majority of golfers use a motorized golf cart. In fact, some areas and courses estimate cart usage is over 90%.  According to administrative staff at facilities in Myrtle beach, walking rounds are non-existent.  It is estimated 95% of rounds at specific facilities are with riding cart.”

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Which perhaps explains by men like Donald Trump that play golf so often can still be so slovenly-looking, and fat. Even though he’s proclaimed himself President of the United States, when he’s out on the golf course he’s just another fat, sweaty-looking guy slugging errant shots out of the weeds. And by many reports, he also cheats. And he’s lied about his commitments. As quoted in the Irish Times:  “I’m going to be working for you,” he told Virginians during the presidential campaign. “I’m not going to have time to play golf.”Trump thumbs his nose at such promises. He now plays golf because he can. And screw anyone that questions that right.

In truth there are very few people who actually dignify themselves by playing golf. The majority are just overweight slobs with dark little secrets and angry wishes thrashing around the course in hopes that some grain of self-esteem will emerge from the last round to justify playing again.  That makes Donald Trump the Poster Child for Populist Dreams of wealth, position. But mostly, the Right to Play Golf. It doesn’t change the fact that he’s just another fat rich guy on the golf course escaping the demands of work and home life.

Criticism comes home to roost

Now, we must remember that Trump criticized Obama for his golf-playing. But Obama also played basketball during much of his first term. As a result, the man remained slim and fit despite the demands of his job. Even his sometime golf partner Bill Clinton, who happens to be a runner, have kept their weight down through middle age. It’s not easy. You have to work at it. Both were wonks about policy with an eye for detail. Both presided over economic recoveries on the heels of Republican excess. You can twist the facts around any way you want, but when it came to running the country on par with standards of excellence and competency, they both excelled.

Clinton had his flaws, for sure. His putter was a bit too active, you might say. And Obama played the game of politics by pulling out his yardage card for every shot he made. But that’s how the pros actually do it. Sergio Garcia didn’t win the 2017 Master’s tournament without a caddy to help him calculate the length of his shots. It’s no surprise that Obama used drones to hit his marks. They fit his calculating nature and cautious use of the military. He played the course of terrorism with both deadly accuracy and unfortunate foible at times.

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Being President of the United States and keeping in shape require plenty of work and attention to detail. Even President George W. Bush was at least a jogger. You can’t stay fit or do the job of President just by walking around yelling slogans such as Make America Fit Again! Instead, you’ve got to raise your heart rate, sweat a little and push your butt back from the table to avoid now and then. It never pays to consume too many calories whether you’re at the Pineview Par Three Golf Course or the posh estates of Mar-A-Lago.

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The point here is that there is a certain amount of character and relationship on display when it comes to how one engages in golf and other activities. Those who worship the wealthy idol (or idle) might dismiss such notions on grounds that being rich means is by itself a sign that you’re smart, gifted and beyond criticism for grift or any other question of character.

It’s a funny lesson in the movie Caddyshack that the kid named Danny won the day. His main hope was earning a chance for a scholarship to college. Yet he ultimately thumbed his nose at Judge Schmales, the richest member of the club who wanted Danny to throw the game in his favor. Danny even showed more class than the Chevy Chase character who choked at the end despite his seemingly suave demeanor.

As for the Rodney Dangerfield character, despite all his claims of joy and satisfaction, he seemed the saddest character of them all. Desperate for attention. Unwilling to take any criticism. Throwing money around like there was no tomorrow. And desperate for a win of some kind to satisfy his bloated ego. It all sounds too familiar in this day and age.

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Pushing pedals and peddling pushes

Venge ExpertOn Saturday we rode with a group of triathletes from the City of Naperville out to Yorkville and back. The first few miles are classic white bread suburbia. Boulevards and subdivisions. Ride in a bunch and watch out for minivans.

Then the roads thin out and the course turns west. And west. And west. Sod farms give way to cornfields. Some are plowed under. Others jut with last year’s stubborn stalks. The signs of harvest hang on until spring when another set of homogenous genetically engineered grain gets plunged into the ground.

Finally, the course zigs a bit, then zags south toward nothingness and flat ground. Then we turned west again into a SW crosswind and kept low profiles to avoid too much drag.

It’s never really fair to push road bike pedals when everyone else in the group is slung across a tri-bike frame with backs parallel to the ground. I rode in the drops for long periods and drafted when I felt like it. What I give up in position. I make up by sucking the wheels of the aerodynamically superior. Tit for tat. Let them pull. They don’t care anyway. It’s not cheating if no one actually cares what you’re doing.

In fact, it hardly matters they ride in a group at all. There are no real team or peloton dynamics among triathletes. Everyone just gets low and hammers. For many of them, drafting is actually a sin because it is outlawed in racing. So it’s every rider for themselves.

As a roadie, these are elements of the triathlon culture I find a bit offensive to the sensibility of what one might consider a “group ride.” But the compromise and purpose of the group ride among multisport people is “company.” Triathletes ride in “groups” for different reasons than roadies. It’s not about sharing the load so much as it is having a measure of effort by which to measure your own progress, for better or worse.

Which is why the sinful part of me so enjoys drafting on triathletes. It’s a little harder than it is drafting on a cyclist on a road bike. The wind shape is not the same.

Yet quite often our group of triathletes has been passed by a solid pack of roadies working as a peloton. 3/4 of them might even be sitting up. Yet they cruise by at 26 mph as if none of them were straining. This might be better known as “peddling pushes” as “pushing pedals.” No roadie can afford or expect to ride off the front for very long. The bunch just sucks them back in.

Whereas with triathletes, a solo rider can push off and grind away. And without the benefits of a draft, no one can catch them or keep up.

I get the reasons for both cultures. I swim between the two in many respects. My Specialized Venge is set up for racing either hard crits or triathlon time trials. When I want to pedal like a roadie, I push back, focus on the pull back on the pedals and let the hamstrings do the work.

And when I ride with the triathletes, I nudge forward on the saddle, get as close to aero as I can get and spin a bigger gear, especially into the wind.

On Sunday we rode with a different group of triathletes. The ride was supposed to be a Zone 2 effort. So I tooled along towing a pair of riders who were not the fastest or most experienced in the group. One of them has not ridden much in groups, and the other doesn’t really like groups. So we pedaled along together in a loose trio while I explained the hand gestures common to group rides so that our newest progeny would not find it all mysterious.

We went that way for 15 miles into a headwind. I pulled the whole way. But not faster than 16-17 mph the whole way. We climbed some long shallow hills and a couple actual inclines. Then we turned north on a newly paved road and let it open up a bit.

The ride east was entirely with a tailwind. Four of us dialed it up and let it fly. We topped 30 for a while without much trouble. Up and down hills we went. My Strava never clicked on for the ride that day but I’m glad of that. The segment time on a popular strip of road going east would not have been accurate to my ability or fitness. That would have been the equivalent of “fake news” when it comes to Strava. Pushing pedals with a tailwind that strong is not an honest assessment of one’s true ability. Peddling pushes that aren’t real is as dishonest in cycling as it is in the “real world.” An honest person my take the seemingly imaginary significance of a good ride seriously, lest the cheating side of our consciousness creep into other pursuits. Cycling is hard. Going fast is harder. Leading others to believe that you are faster than you are may be the ultimate lie.

So I choose honesty.  In cycling. In golf. In business. I make mistakes it’s true. We can shade the truth on purpose and by accident.

But then it’s our job not to hide our mistakes, but to confess them. It’s the only way to live. And push so that others appreciate there are principles in this world to abide.

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When the gear slips, the gears slip

Old Shoes.jpgYesterday I wore a pair of Cordogan shoes to work. They complemented the peach Oxford shirt and olive pants I’d paired up from the closet. Sue said, “You look nice.”

But they are old shoes, having been handed to me upon the death of my father-in-law after family members cleaned out the closets. So I’d think about my late father-in-law whenever I wore those Ecco shoes.

One problem: the shoes are a touch tight. So I don’t wear them all that often, especially if the work day calls for long walks of any sort. They definitely would not have been suitable for the two-mile hike from the train station to the marketing agency where I did some contract work in Chicago for a month. Blisters might have ensued on a walk that long. And you don’t want that.

We try not to let our everyday clothes and footwear mess with our sporting lives. Yet I recall a previous commute in Chicago where the walk to work was 2.5 miles. That meant I either took the bus, hailed a cab or walked. I already wore orthotics to help prevent knee soreness and injuries such as chondromalacia. The orthotics back then consisted of a plastic foot form covered by a permanent layer of insole. And I ran in the same orthotics. So they stunk. Really stunk.

I tried everything to get them to stop stinking, but they still smelled of pungent sweat and foot odor. Some days I’d get to work and sit at my desk with the smell of my stinky orthotics wafting up to my nose. Like a country hayseed.

The Hayseed Factor

That was a problem because I shared a long desk with a refined younger woman who somehow politely ignored (to me anyway) the stink of my orthotically stinky feet. And that was embarrassing but there wasn’t much I could do about it.

Thus the world of athletics and the world of work sometimes merge whether you like it or not. It’ not good when you get a blister from the commute or your shoes stink to high heaven because you work out in the same orthotics you wear in your dress shoes. When stuff like that happens, it feels like the cosmic gears are slipping somehow. As in, “What is wrong with my life that I can’t control these simple things?”

But the fact of the matter is that we don’t really control a number of things in our lives. And things wear out. Break down. Get old. Or become outdated or useless. Some can’t accept that about their lives. They cling to things when they should relent. It happens in every facet of life. In work. At play. Even in religion and politics. Some people can’t let go of worn out anything.

Yet I still love the song by Sting and the Police titled “When the world is running down you make the best of what’s still around.”  It celebrates that sense of ‘hanging on’ and making the best of things even when the world is changing before your eyes. Some of the lyrics go like this:

Turn on my V.C.R., same one I’ve had for years
James Brown on the Tammy show,
Same tape I’ve had for years
I sit in my old car, same one I’ve had for years
Old battery’s running down, it ran for years and years

Which brings me back to those old shoes I wore yesterday. They started to fall apart right underneath my feet. The soles began to crumble into rubber bits that littered the pad under my office chair. By day’s end big chunks of brittle rubble, an inch in length, were scattered over the floor.

Revelations

It took me a while to figure out what was going on. Then I lifted my foot and looked at the bottom of the shoes. There was a three-inch void in the sole rubber. Even the heel of one shoe was falling apart. The rubber was crumbling and tumbling off.

Those shoes must have been much older than I thought. They still look good. The tan leather still looks pretty enough. So perhaps I could have them re-soled. Yet that typically costs as much as a new pair of shoes. Planned obsolescence? Not really. Shoes simply don’t last forever.

And like I said, those shoes were a bit tight.

Worn out shorts

The crumbling condition of those shoe soles reminded me of the sudden dissolution this winter of a relatively new pair of Pearl Izumi cycling shorts. I pulled them out to ride this winter when a long February warm spell allowed a few road bike rides this year.

But when I pulled my standard black bike shorts out of the drawer, their condition shocked me. Whenever lycra gets old its starts to show tan fibers at the surface. Perhaps those black fibers get bleached by abrasion, or the laundry. But whatever their cause, the worn fibers are a sign that a set of bike shorts is beyond its useful life. Worn through, you might say.

Bike Shorts Worn Out.jpgI tried hard to recall when I had purchased those shorts. My thoughts turned to last year, when we took a trip out west for training. It sure seemed like I bought those shorts just before that April trip. But could a set of cycling shorts wear out in just a year?

In more than a decade of riding, I’ve worn out five or six pairs of cycling shorts of the same style. None of them gave in after just one year, or even two years. But the black bike shorts that I own now look like hell.

Perhaps someone can enlighten me as to what causes the problem to happen so quickly on some shorts and not others. Perhaps it is my new position on the bike. The front of the shorts is actually worn off more than the back. Maybe my strong forward lean on the bike is causing friction around the crotch. If only it was too much crotch causing the friction. Every man’s dream, right? Ha ha.

Worn out dreams

But some people simply hang onto gear for too long. Seems like we all know people who wear their endurance gear far longer than its proper, useful life. One guy who occasionally joined our Saturday group ride wore the same raggedy-ass triathlon shorts he bought back in the 1980s. Those saggy shorts literally hung on his body. How they did not wear completely through and leave bare-ass holes on his ass cheeks no one will ever know. Or want to know.

There is a point at which one should not remain loyal to any piece of equipment. And there are moments when SURPRISE! even a relatively new piece of gear slips into dysfunction mode or wears out before its time.

It happens with every kind of gear it seems. There are lemons in every kind of product. Running shoes that fall apart or never work. Bike gear or even bikes that never work like they were designed. Swim goggles that break the day you buy them, or always fog up no matter what sort of spray or spit you apply to their precious surfaces.

When the gear slips, the gears slip. It’s a fact of life. All we can do is deal with it and move on.

So I tossed those old shoes in the garbage and the bike shorts will likely go a week from now. Sometimes there’s nothing we can do about our functional and dysfunctional possession. And that’s the naked truth.

When I feel lonely here, don’t waste my time with tears
I run ‘Deep Throat’ again, it ran for years and years
Don’t like the food I eat, the cans are running out
Same food for years and years, I hate the food I eat

When the world is running down
You make the best of what’s still around

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Weight, weight, don’t tell me (too)

RECE11797-X2It’s a fact. Endurance athletes can lose weight by not stepping on the scale. The pounds just fly off when you ignore reality. Avoid the numbers. Kick the digital reality to the curb.

This is true only because our bodies tend weigh less in the morning than they do in the evening. So you can typically, truthfully claim, “I weigh less this morning than I did last night.” And you won’t be lying to yourself.

Of course, the rude exception to this rule is stepping on the scale when you’ve had a big meal or two and missed a workout to boot. Then the scale is the one that must be lying. “What? 185? I weighed 182 last night!”

What’s even worse is going to the doctor’s office where they don’t let you take off your shoes and clothes before stepping on the scale. “190!” your brain screams beneath all that clothing and the hat you neglected to remove from your head. It’s enough to make you strip naked and run several laps up and down the hall before stepping back on the scale. “Oh-Kay!” you’d scream triumphantly. “188. Now THAT’s more LIKE IT!”

We all seem to have these set points where weight guts our self-esteem. Thinking back to our racing weight from seven years ago, we know that seven pounds or ten pounds or fifteen pounds lurking on our bodies isn’t really “real” weight. It’s just sticking around until we magically achieve racing fitness again.

I weighed 140 when I ran 5:00 pace in races. So it’s no wonder I can’t race that fast anymore. You try carrying around 40 more lbs. and run a 5:00 mile. Yes, some of that weight is muscle that I’ve gained. And I actually have gluteus muscles from cycling. So there’s that. That’s one of the few aspects of life where I’ve made an ass of myself and been proud of it.

So it’s a grand compromise when it comes to judging ourselves by our weight. The realities of a slower metabolism and a much less aggressive workout schedule guarantee that I’ll never weigh an insanely thin 140 lbs again.

But I’m also sure I don’t want to weigh that little. Not in my mature, sage context. It wouldn’t look good on me.

So it’s the “Weight, Weight Don’t Tell Me” game for me. Perhaps you play it too. Too bad there is not a prize for rationalization, or a category on Jeopardy.

“I’ll take “BELLY FAT FOR $50, ALEX.”

To which the correct question would always be, “What is hanging around your middle?”

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Through bloodroot and moonglow we go

Bloodroot.jpgSome might consider the things I consider sacred a bit silly. One of these is the bloom of bloodroot in the spring woods. It flowers in April. The petals do not last more than a few precious days. Its leaves look like a tender version of a grape leaf. Its stems run blood red if you pluck the plant from its muddy place in the earth.

It is this last trait that makes me appreciate bloodroot the most. It seems to share the frailty of life itself. When cut, it bleeds.

This morning while running a course through a local forest preserve, I glanced into the woods to find bloodroot sticking up in little clumps. It is not a prolific flower by trait. Not nearly so prevalent or aggressive as the trout lily that spreads like a school of mottled fish across the forest floor.

I stepped off the running path with my camera and took a photo of the bloodroot. In several days its petals will fall and turn black against the prairie soil. If you do not pass through the woods during its springtime appeal it is gone for another year. This also makes it sacred.

While standing again on the trail,  I glanced up at the western sky to see a yellowing moon sinking toward the horizon. It sinks because the earth is turning toward the east. By all appearances, that makes the sun seem to rise. It is all an illusion that convinced all of humanity for thousands of years that we existed at the center of the universe.

And now we know better.

The moon circles us just as we circle the sun. Not so long ago it was thought that the sun circled the earth. That was a human attempt to define ourselves as the most meaningful product of creation in God’s eyes. It turns out that is nothing more than a desperate and distracting illusion, for it excuses so much self-centered behavior disguised as an expression of providence.

The self-centered beliefs of priests and chiefs and laymen are so persistent there are still many who imagine themselves to be a perfection somehow of God’s work in this world.

But those of us who run or ride through the woods on a cold spring morning know better.  We trek with moonlight on our backs and mud on their feet, caught between worlds of inspiration and grift.

We have a right to ask: do those who imagine themselves the center of the universe cover ground on their own? Do they consider that the roots of living prairie plants beneath the soil go so much deeper than we are tall? And that it took thousands of years of dying prairie plants to build the soil we plant with seeds to create food that sustains us all? We are not the center of anything. We are merely earthly beings caught between earth and sky. Carbon and water. Minerals and salt.

We are the ephemeral ones. We are the bloodroot of humanity.

MoonglowIt is true that we are all as frail as the blossom of bloodroot in the spring. Pale as moonglow under the pall of death. It occurred to me as I posted this photo that somewhere on the prairie behind me in this photo are the ashes of a wife that I scattered with my children the week after Easter four years ago. But those are gone as well. The earth gives forth and the earth reclaims.

Even our holiest garments and fervent prayers do not spare us this fate. That is why the bloodroot is sacred. It is a reminder to live in the moment. To run or ride or swim for all you are worth, and to be grateful for the opportunity. Take stock and languish for a few moments in the spring woods as the moonlight loses its power to the sun.

And be alive.

 

 

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Some hungry cats teach a lesson about being “hangry” from hunger

Peep BennyAs Sue leaned over to give me a kiss before leaving for Master’s Swim this morning, she whispered, “Don’t go running. There are big storms coming.” I checked the Weather Channel app after she left and the entire face of the screen was covered with green and orange storm clouds. “Well,” she’s right about that I chuckled.

So I went downstairs to gather some laundry for a trip to the gym. But on the way down the stairs our cadre of four hungry cats had other ideas. So I dug into the cat food and found a few cans of the stuff that they haven’t really been eating lately. It was Salmon and Green Pea. No wonder they aren’t eating.

Turning up their noses
With no other options I dished the stuff into their bowls and you have never seen such an underwhelming reaction in your life. Cats who don’t want to eat what you’re serving are the kings and queens of disdain. They looked up at me with anger in their eyes. They were clearly “hangry” at me.

So I had pity on them. It was a combination guilt trip and ready excuse on a Monday morning not to work out. I dressed for the gym just in case. But on the way to the Woodman’s grocery store I started to do that mental calculus that goes like this:

workout + changing + breakfast + commute = get to work

and my brain shut down after the word “breakfast.”

PeepsBecause I was one hungry cat. Those other hungry cats had made me think about ingesting food before I was ready to think about food. And I was getting hungrier by the minute. Then I walked through Woodman’s and spied a type of food that should not be a food and it got me thinking about how much food I eat that I should not be eating because it is full of sugar and other bad stuff and my stomach growled in response.

But it seems like junk food is about 60% of what our grocery shelves seems to carry. Junk food no one needs to eat. Giant rows of potato chips and Doritos. But we eat it anyway because in the moment, we’re hungry, or we’re stressed, or we’re bored. Or we’re stressed because we’re bored. So we eat. And feel stupid like Peeps without a purpose in life.

Sick to my stomach

Last summer my stomach growled a lot because I got an infection from a something that scratched my hand that turned into cellulitis that required antibiotics that killed all my good gut bacteria. That resulted in chronic nastiness with my insides and patent threats of diarrhea all the time. That required taking a bunch of probiotics and antibiotics––at the same time! to kill and overwhelm the bad bacteria caused by C-Diff in the gut. And in that condition, one learns quickly to distinguish between the growl of a hungry stomach and the growl of threatening bowel.

Growling skies

So there were memories of that challenge last summer as a new round of storms gathered in the western sky. I drove back from Woodman’s with a fresh round of cat food that I knew the kitties would like. It goes to show there are simply some things with which you cannot mess around. Appetites are real, yet hunger is hunger, and we left the food out long enough during the weekend to find that the cats barely ate. The food we provided was mixed with stuff they did like. It was salmon and green peas. So they went hungry. But finally they ate. Some.

It stinks to be hungry

It frankly stinks to be hungry, but it also stinks to be hungry and be faced with food that is clearly not appetizing. For all the bragging people once did about their military service, complaints around the quality of food that soldiers received used to be quite common. The same used to be said about hospital food, and even high school or college cafeteria food. But those have all been improved over time. There is more to appetite than raw hunger.

Granted, when Sue and I finished a 30+ mile ride after starting mid-morning, we were pretty darned hungry. By the time we stopped at Buffalo Wild Wings to pick up an order of promised food for the twenty-somethings that helped do mulch in the yard the previous day, we were close to being “hangry.” If you don’t get enough to eat, or in time, that hungry anger can kick in. When metabolism demands food, it has no patience. It wants food now.

Raw and difficult subject

Which is why hunger is such a raw and difficult subject for so many people to understand.  Many millions of Americans only experience hunger between meals. But experiencing hunger when there is no food to eat is an entirely different order of challenge. It grinds at the soul. So if you’ve never visited the FeedingAmerica.org website, take a visit and learn a few things about how hunger affects so many people.

The term “food insecurity” has been adopted to describe people living in situations where they do not know where their next meal is coming from. In many states, schools have taken on the mantle of assuaging this need for children.

Cognitive dissonance

Acerbic commentators such as Rush Limbaugh have been known to deny the fact that hunger even exists in America. I heard him say this live, on-air, and was shocked to hear anyone make such a claim. That fundamental level of uninformed opinion is quite damaging to the understanding of real problems in America. It also demonstrates two things: a clear lack of factual information and an ideological predisposition to deny facts that run counter to what one wants to believe over what is really happening in the world.

Another term for it is cognitive dissonance: In psychology, cognitive dissonance is the mental stress or discomfort experienced by an individual who holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values at the same time, performs an action that is contradictory to one or more beliefs, ideas or values, or is confronted by new information that conflicts with existing beliefs, ideas, or values.

Such cognitive dissonance has led to practices such as lunch shaming the hungry.  Such is the disrespect of humanity wrought by those emboldened by affirmation of their emboldened ignorance. Such behavior goes far back in moral and theological history to the idea that people who are poor or physically disabled are somehow “cursed” or ignored by God for their sins.

Making connections

Peep MercuryReligion is supposed to have progressed, yet the effects of arrogance, entitlements and selfish pride never disappear from society. So while it may seem silly to connect the hunger of our household cats or the hunger one feels after missing a meal due to a workout with the hunger of people in our communities and around the world, there is a cognitive connection. You can ask yourself: What would it feel like to be hungry all the time, or to have no access to food? How would that make me feel? 

In our area of the country, the Northern Illinois Food Bank feeds tens of thousands of people each week. Many of those folks are neighbors who depend on such organizations to help them make food ends meet.

Yet hunger remains a shameful topic in the eyes of, and politicians have been busy cutting funding for food stamps and meals for the elderly. Some of these programs only require a couple hundred million dollars to feed the hungry of all ages. Yet our nation thinks nothing of hurtling $130M worth of Tomahawk missiles at an abandoned airfield to distract from the selfish behavior of its Egotist in Chief.

Hunger is real. Perhaps it is time we all slowed down and consider what it means. Stop being “hangry”  in our athletic pursuits and start thinking about a few other people in this world. It’s been a year since I consistently gave to the food bank near me. Changing bank accounts disrupted that practice. But I’ve worked a few days stocking trucks and want to get back to giving regularly to feed the hungry in our communities.

It’s amazing what a few hungry cats can teach us about ourselves.

 

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